Secret Garden

28 | lgbt | she/her & they/them I like taking photos 📷 Message me for info on buying prints I also reblog a lot of artwork and things that I'm interested in

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I've been looking into developing film at home and it seems like more work than I'm willing to do but I was talking to JJ about it and apparently he's always wanted to learn how to develop film???? He just doesn't actually enjoy taking photos. But he's fascinated by the chemicals and the process and wants to learn how to get the photos onto the paper like they do in old movies/shows where they hang up the wet paper from the ceiling. So we're going to work on getting a dark room set up in the basement and teaching him how to develop photos so that eventually he can just develop all the photos I take from home. And we'll just be a little photo team where neither of us really has any interest in doing the job of the other but are both super passionate about our own parts in it lmao

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@star-rice

Yes! Honestly being creative with other people is always so much fun ♥
And I'm just really excited to try it out. Like I was reading about developing and honestly it just seems like more than I personally want to do right now (might have to change things if photo labs close lol). And I mentioned that when I start working again I think I'm going to buy a film scanner just to make film processing slightly cheaper but that I don't want to develop the film and he was just like "Oh I've always wanted to learn how to do that" and I guess he never brought it up because he assumed I'd rather just have it professionally done lol

So we're going to work on building a basement darkroom and watching some vids and then buy some cheap film and take nonsense photos to practice with. It'll probably be something that doesn't actually happen for a while but I'm VERY excited to get things in motion :D



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I've really been trying this whole "new year new me" thing lately and I'm honestly so proud of myself and I feel like I need to write it down so I can look back when I feel like I haven't acomplished anything ♥

  • I haven't smoked weed in at least 4-5 months. At first it was just to give my lungs a break when covid first hit but then I realized how badly I was addicted to the high. I also realized when I would break and smoke again I would get significantly more content in boredom and non-activity. (this isn't anti-weed or anything it was just negative for me personally and especially with how often I was using it and the fact that I was using it as a coping mechinism by being so blasted I couldn't think of anything)
  • I've gone 8 days straignt of using the elliptical (every day I've had it so far) and I can already tell that it's getting easier to use and I'm doing it more often. Still short bursts but several times a day. It's also making my arms tired a lot quicker than my legs which is GOOD because I've done almost nothing to work on arm strength and I really need it.
  • For Christmas I got a new frying pan, a food processor, and an air-fryer and I've really gotten to a point where I enjoy cooking. I've also been cooking a lot healthier and adding fresh vegetables to my diet as often as possible. I've also recently discovered a love of peppers and use the food processor to add them to a LOT of dishes that I wouldn't have thought of before.
  • I've been washing my face twice a day every day for around a month and have finally started to (almost) completely get rid of my adult acne. (witch hazel did the trick!)
  • There's dry-erase calandar up on the kitchen wall to keep track of chores I do and it's keeping me a lot more active now that I can see how much I'm actually doing on normal days and I'm not feeling as worthless about "not doing anything"
  • I've started up better relationships with my youngest siblings thanks to fb messenger for kids. I don't talk with them super often but I'm still an active part of their life and I'm happy to be around them so much.
  • Re-applied at the amusement park I worked at in the 2020 season. I still don't know if they're even planning to open but fingers crossed that they do and they hire me back. (big reason I started using the elliptical was to get me into shape for all the long-distance walking at the park)
  • I'm doing more art than I have in a really long time. I'm not trying to push myself too much but I'm still really happy and starting to see some progress compared to art that's a few years old.
  • KNITTING! I love to knit so much now and I'm keeping up with it almost every single day :) I'm not doing great on actual finished projects since I'm kind of taking it all pretty slow but I'm still very impressed with myself for not dropping it like I do almost every single hobby I pick up.
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@nnightisms @UnidentifiedBlog

thanks guys! i guess i get it into my head that most people are able to do like a ton of things every single day and i'm just way behind but i feel like there are probably actually a lot of others who struggle too. i really need to give myself more credit :)



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idk if I've mentioned this before but my photos can always be used for art references and things like that! I'd just like some kind of credit for the orginal photo but I'm very supportive of artists and creativity and I honestly LOVE the idea of anything I post inspiring anyone in any way

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@star-rice that's so nice! I know I would be super awkward asking about something like that so I wanted to just put it out there (and added a little thing to my bio) ^^ I always really enjoy looking at art studies people do and I just adore art in general so I'd love to see anything that is related to my photos that would just be SO cool tbh ♥

If you do decide to give it a go, I would love to see the results!



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I have some deep trauma involving washing dishes and it's honestly really stupid but I'm so tired of washing them and I'm super grossed out by sponges/cleaning brushes and I keep getting into positions where I'm hungry but my desire to eat isn't as strong as my desire to not do dishes and it's also totally unreasonable to make my husband wash them every time when he works 40-50 hour weeks and I work 12 hours a week

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@astr0

i think i do have some gloves somwhere and that helps tbh. i just used to have to do allll of our dishes and and it had to be in one sink of water and no one in my family rinsed anything. so there was always just food chunks floating in the water and my mom NEVER wanted to get new sponges so we'd always have these disgsting tattered, smelly sponges because she didn't believe in boiling them or microwaving them because "sponges don't get dirty you use soap on them" and even with gloves it's hard to get all that old stuff out of my head about it

i think i will try to find where i put them last though cause it would help me enough to at leas wash enough for dinner tonight ^^



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@UnidentifiedBlog

i freaked out when i first saw it too lol!
it climbed onto my picnic table and i think it thought it was a tree so i felt bad and let it climb on my hand and moved it onto a tree then panicked when i got into the house when i realized it definitely had a venemous look to it LMAO (apparently they can cause rashes and itching but i guess it didn't think i was a threat and it climbed into my hand instead of me picking it up)


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my job is going to be starting soon so i'm trying to cut off all association from my shop and instagram with tumblr, twitter, and here becuase i don't want to get in trouble for anything related to social media.

i don't really post anything bad here, but i think if i had a bad day this is where i would most likely vent, and my tumblr isn't really bad either but i don't want any association with that and my job anyhow. my instagram is the most public but i also really don't post anything personal there other than photography.

either way it's not like i'm going to be tagging them in posts and being like "i work here lmaooo" but just trying to get everything covered because their training thing pretty mentioned specifically you can be fired for your social media. like you're allowed to share photos of the park but they get to see where those photos are shared basically (but who actually tags their job in photos???)

idk it's probably me being over worried but still

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@star-rice

that's actually a really good point tbh. I think I'll probably go back to promoting my other social media on all my platforms but I might wait until I start working and see if there's any gossip floating around about anyone actually losing their job due to social media. I feel like they may have just included it for anyone dumb enough to make a post like "at work @job" on an account with photos like promoting violence or something. Or since we're not allowed to use our phones on the job they probably don't want you posting photos while wearing your uniform or something.

i think the only difference is that even if i don't mention my job by name, with it being an amusement park there are probably certain rides/attractions that would only be found there that would make it a little more obvious



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@UnidentifiedBlog
oh, definitely. It's one of those situations where I almost never saw my dad's side of the family as a kid and then he moved out of state eventually and I just recently added him on fb and this was the first time he'd ever interacted with any of my posts and never posts anything himself. So it was just kinda like what the hell dude?

And I deleted the comment, but it seemed like he was trying to say that black lives don't matter to black people because they get abortions sometimes? Like I know abortions are already a heavy debate but to act like that has anything to do with current events is just f'd up honestly.


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@UnidentifiedBlog

that's actually a really nice idea. it's gonna be a hard task but i've also gotta look at it as "i don't have the space for them so some have to go" and not "i'm an adult i don't need them" because i used to shame myself into getting rid of certain things and then i would always regret it. so i think knowing some need to go, and doing your idea of wishing them luck and peace after me will also help ♥


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i erase the genre of all the music in my collection the genre is just "things i like"

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@fungus

@flowerfemme

you guys get it



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@kyoyaootoriback in the day when pottermore first started I got sorted into slytherin and I like to imagine post-battle of hogwarts slytherin to be much different than book slytherin and the description they gave was actually really nice. plus regulus black is one of the best characters, and i really adore snakes 🐍💚


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you guys are all such a force of positive feelings

@gloatbee

photography is definitely an art and i always have to remind myself of that. i didn't completely abandon my creativity i just changed the outlet. honestly this is probably the best time in history to get into some kind of drawing or craft because there are SO MANY options for mediums and types of supplies you can buy. this is wonderful encouragement :)

@thembo

this is exactly what discourages me too! there are so many artists my age and even much younger that are just so fantastic at what they do but i've always been bad about comparing myself to others that had different life experiences and different natural talent and i get all upset but it's not the right way to look at life.

your roommate is a rolemodel and i hope she continues to find inspiration and i'll try as well ^^


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[[MENTION:[[@babushka]]]] this is a very good point and tbh the soul really does need to have artistic expression


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@smooch thank you so much, friend! This is honestly the best I've felt in a really long time, it's just scary to think about the futute sometimes 🖤


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