28 | lgbt | she/her & they/them I like taking photos 📷 Message me for info on buying prints I also reblog a lot of artwork and things that I'm interested in
I once had to renew a library book past the 3 online renewals I was allowed cause I'm a slow reader sometimes and the librarian got so mean at me for taking so long to read it that I never got another rented another library book again
ummmm so my therapist said something ive never heard anyone do or say before so imma share
she said to practice not labeling things as good or bad, there's a word for it but i don't rememember the english one
and she gave me an example, like instead of saying "i am ugly" (i feel ugly these days sadly, so)
i could just say "i wish i looked different"
this doesn't take away my feelings from the sentence but it doesn't sound like a death sentence anymore, also it now sounds like a ME problem (because I don't know what others people think of me, they might not think I'm ugly, I only think that, and I only think that because at this point of time i wish i look different).
also it's solution oriented because i can try looking different with makeup or whatever the heck there is
some people would try and say that it's not progressive and i should just jump straight to accepting and loving how i look but heres the thing
1) a licensed therapist said that and they also are very educated in their field so
2) feelings don't just go away easy like that and it's okaystar-rice
on the "its not progressive enough" bit, its hard to jump straight from self loathing to self love. Having neutral feelings about yourself is a lot easier of a stepping stone. Not being openly hostile towards yourself is a very reasonable goal especially if you've been less than kind to yourself for so long.
i have some film that i eventually need to get developed and i know i have several photos of my cat on at least a couple different rolls and i’m really happy that i’ll be able to see something “new” of him. i’ve always been kind of meh if film doesn’t turn out right but i’m hoping with all my heart that every photo of him looks absolutely perfect
i miss seeing art of every type in the featured section. i miss making bad art and seeing it on my dashboard. i hate seeing the same 4 images over and over as they keep getting notes. let the inexperienced shine! let the people who do silly art for fun have the spotlight!
I'm kind of tossing around the idea of opening an etsy shop for things like fingerless gloves and other little knitting projects but I'm trying to gauge interest in that kind of thing. Do people still buy homemade knit stuff or no since it's so mass produced these days??
my appointment for Cat ended up being about $130 over the price that they had originally said it was going to be so it put our account in the negative. so i asked for some help on tumblr for ko-fi donations and so many people sent tips (including one anon $50 tip) and honestly humanity isn't as bad as people make it out to be sometimes 😭😭 so many strangers were totally willing to help out after just a horrible day and i'm so thankful tbh
My wonderful boy Cat has passed away today. He was my cat for 10 years, but I knew him since he was born 17 years ago. He lived with my grandparents and when I was a kid I played with his mom, grandma, and great-grandma. He's been my best pal through so many life changes and he's been to more states than some people I know. He will be missed by so many people, including some that were never able to meet him irl but still knew him. I'll never see orange cats the same way. He's been my best pal through so many life changes and he's been to more states than some people I know. He will be missed by so many people, including some that were never able to meet him irl but still knew him. I'll never see orange cats the same way.
He purred up to the end and that was such a comfort for such a terrible situation. I'm glad to know that at least he was happy as he fell asleep cuddling me like he often did at home.
tbh @coffee 's pupbee art is something i wildly look forward to lately! such a happy little creature during some tough times
im in full pupbee mode
lksdfhs im using these pupbees to practice but ngl i may end up just making myself a comp bg cause WHY NOT
tomorrow i'm going to be making an appointment for my 17 year old cat to cross the rainbow bridge. he's not in an emergency situation BUT he's getting to a point where he doesn't want to clean himself anymore and he's just not doing well and i want to do this for him before it's a situation where he's actively suffering when it happens. this way i can do it on a good day where he's comfortable enough and we can give him the best send-off we possibly cannaiad
we picked up a big bag of cat nip and frozen salmon filets and he's getting high af on nip tonight and he's gonna get a chunk of salmon and if they can't schedule him in right away then I'll just keep him spoiled and happy for the next couple days until they're ready for him.
eventually the plan is to send some of his ashes in to get a pendant made so he can be with me all the time. He's been a constant source of love and comfort for me for the past 10 years and I've known him since he was born 17 years ago. that's a lot of life to spend with a small creature who only knows how to love and be silly
tomorrow i'm going to be making an appointment for my 17 year old cat to cross the rainbow bridge. he's not in an emergency situation BUT he's getting to a point where he doesn't want to clean himself anymore and he's just not doing well and i want to do this for him before it's a situation where he's actively suffering when it happens. this way i can do it on a good day where he's comfortable enough and we can give him the best send-off we possibly can
finally printed and hung up some of the fan art i've gotten over the last year now that my room is all painted and decorated ♥ moving my computer in there pretty soon cause i just really love being in there now and trying to find a bisexual flag to hang up somewhere (maybe a big one to be a curtain) and I'll be basically done unless i find more art ^^
i attempted homemade sushi last week and it was actually pretty great?? just a california roll but i'm still happy with it. don't think i'll do anything with raw fish by myself